They are pushing me to the gutter

for Molly

Photo by Jr Korpa on Unsplash

I’m starting now
I’m starting
Back in my recluse
A Hegelian approach
Semi-blood knows that enough
A life like a close

I think
It’s all a joke
and best to live like that
and to enjoy it
What’s more to enjoy
than getting lost in the pleasure of experience itself
Fucked up
in the middle of
people you’ve never met
and you’ll never meet again
but hey
maybe there’s a nice conversation out of it
and that’s part of it
that connection
it’s a high
it never lasts
But I think it’s truer
see
I’ve read these poems about
Love lost
about
The way the sunset blankets the grass as it hugs the horizon
And listen
I get that
I think it’s beautiful too
Just not as beautiful as MDMA will ever be